Here I am, giving a blank stare at my PC.

I don’t know if it’s you or just me. It’s just weird that after some days of no “long” talks, I did not feel that you missed me… and you just suddenly called it a day because you were having some sort of “technical” problems. I was expecting you would just ignore those and just talk to me, but it turned out the other way. Even the way you bid your goodbye was totally different.

Ok, forgive me because I know that I was the first one who had a problem technically… but it was so unexpected.

I really feel sad because I REALLY want to talk to you because I am fuckin’ missing you. But you were bothered by something else, just suddenly gave up and never gave it another try. As far I remember, you had a similar problem but never seemed to be bothered by it.

I’m not really scared at all of what might be coming to happen… but somehow, I am preparing for something worse ever since the day you told me that you met someone else that kind of resembles me. That day I told my self that I will start to take things lightly and not so seriously so that in the end, it would not really matter to me that much.

Right now, as I am writing this, there are lots of things that are goin’ on in my head. I am imagining things that may happen few days or weeks from now. It feels really weird. Really weird.

...

FUCK THAT LANDLINE PHONE. IT’S FULL OF BULLSHIT.

Mahiwagang Baul

Nang minsang madatnan ko ang umaga nagtaka ako dahil isang papalubog na araw ang nakita ko. Nagtanong ako sa langit:

"Tuluyan na bang lulubog ang araw sa umaga, at makikita ang buwan sa bawat paggising ko?"

Sumagot ito at sinabing:

"Nagkakamali ka. Ang araw ay lulubog sa umaga at... Hindi ko pa alam kung MAPAPASAIYO ang buwan."

"Ngunit hindi ko naman hinihingi ang buwan. Gusto ko lang itong makita sa umaga kung sakaling hindi mo na papasikatin ang araw."

Hindi na sumagot pa ang langit. Hanggang ngayo'y naghihintay pa rin ako sa magiging sagot nito.

*This post has the original title of "Nanghihina". I saw this work of mine when i was browsing my friendster inbox. I made this December 2004 and posted it in the Friendster Bulletin. The reason why i saw this in my inbox is that somebody sent me a message of reaction for this post, and it said that it was too dramatic. Agree? lol

Bored.

Pangarap na B-tuin

Yup, tapos na nga ang Jewel in the Palace… pero anong pakialam ko, hindi naman tungkol dun ang post ko.

Yeah, yeah… theme song nga ng Jewel in the Palace yung title ng post ko ngayon. Pero somehow, may relevance yung title ng post na binabasa mo ngayon.

Na-open ko na rin lang ang tungkol sa show ni Jang Geum (tama ba spelling? Hindi kasi ako nood nun eh), parang nakakatawang isipin na ang isang babae na nag-umpisa bilang kusinera o tagapagluto ay biglang naging tagapag-opera ng tao sa bandang huli… parang… ewwww nakakadiri… IMAGINE, pano na lang kung wala na siyang maisip na lutuin, ano na lang ang lulutuin niya…? Waahhh naiisip ko pa lang nasusuk—*vomits*

Haaayyy… na-dissolve na nga ang Section A ng 4th year. Kung may maririnig pa rin kayong CoE 4A, hindi sila yun, I mean hindi sila ang original CoE 4A. Sila ang dating CoE 4B.

Actually, last year pa bali-balita na madidissolve kami. Pero hindi ako naniwala. Pero ngayon totoo na. WAAAAAH!!!!

Syempre iba pa rin kapag may tag ka na Section A. Sa tanang-buhay ko, ngayon lang ako napunta sa ibang section… parang ang hirap tanggapin. Hindi po ako nagyayabang o kung ano pa man. It’s just weird that some people get to have something which they did not actually work for. It seems so unfair to those people who are really deserving to get what they deserve. But what can we do? Wala na. Kami daw kasi ang pinakakonti sa lahat ng 4th year CoE students.

Kaya naman, eto kami, bagong pakikisalamuha sa mga bagong tao. I really hope na makasundo namin ang mga bago naming classmates.

Running for OJT kami ngayon, so dapat wala kaming maging bagsak this year so that everything that follows will flow smoothly. Good luck na lang sa min!

Till my next post… and uh.. Happy Father’s day sa lahat ng tatay dyan!

MTV Asia Awards 2006

Finally, the MTV Asia Awards (MAAs) 2006 came. It took place 6th May 2006 in Siam Peragon, Bangkok, Thailand. It was the second time that Thailand hosted the event. The first was last year where the MAAs reformatted and was transformed to MTV Asia Aid to “aid” those people who were badly affected by the tsunami that happened in South Asia last December 2004. You can read my post about MTV Asia Aid here.

The opening act was Korn. I cannot really tell if they were good at that time because I am not really a fan of hard rock. Compared to the previous MAAs (this year is the 5th), I can tell that only few international acts performed/came. I am not really sure if this is only the organizers’ way of cost-cutting or they want to give more way to Asian artists, for them to be known Asia-wide. And oh, the stage. Yeah the stage! It was bad, sooo bad. It was like they did not think of anything better. It was so ordinary.

I am not sure if the winners are the ones whom the voters voted. It seems like MTV gave those awards to those acts (particularly the international ones) who performed. It’s like this:

MTV: “Would you like to perform at the MAAs?”

Artist: “Sorry, I am busy at the moment”

MTV: “Oh, that’s too bad”

Artist: “Yeah.”

MTV: “Simon Webb agreed to perform at the MAAs and we are planning to give him the Favourite Breakthrough Artist.”

Artist: “Really?”

MTV: “HELL YEAH.”

Artist: “Ok, I’ll be there!”

My favorite part of the MAAs was when Rivermaya performed live. Of course I am a Filipino and I should be proud of them! They did You’ll Be Safe Here and they kind of modified the last few lines of the song to Filipino version. The only one I can remember is “…Sa liwanag, Sa dilim, You’ll be safe here..”.

Hoobastank was also there and they performed their latest single If I Were You. They were great.

The MAAs 2006 was hosted by Wang Lee Hom and Kelly Rowland. Supposed to be, it should be Kelly Clarkson and not Kelly Rowland. When I first heard that Kelly Clarkson would be hosting the MAAs, I was like “Oh please, not her!” and when I heard that she was replaced by Kelly Rowland, I was like “Putangina naman, si Kelly Clarkson na nga lang!!!” (hehe, nagtagalog bigla). It was like she didn’t know what to do at that time when she was hosting the event. Forgive me, but I think she shouldn’t have been there. Yeah, she can sing… but I think she can’t host. Peace!

Overall, I give the MAAs 2006 a 2 out of 5 rating. I hope next year, MAAs will be better. And please… bring the MAAs here in the Philippines!